"patterns" lyrics

I know I'm no good
At telling the truth
But I can't find a way
No, I'm no good
And this is the proof
Feels like it's too late

And I tried to change
In a million different ways
I tried but failed

I thought I'm okay
Thought I'd be alright
If I could just pretend
I've never seen that look in your eyes
But it turns out it's all the same
Again and again

In a million different ways
Again and again
This pattern in my head
Doesn't fit the pattern in my heart
Made another mistake
'Cause I'm too afraid to try

I know it's too late
I know my own ways
I know I can't make you stay
Again and again
I'm blaming myself
That is the price I'll pay
I know my own ways
I know I can't make you stay
Again and again
I'm blaming myself
That is the price I'll pay
I tried to change

In a million different ways
Again and again
This pattern in my head
Doesn't fit the pattern in my heart
Made another mistake
'Cause I'm too afraid to try

The pattern in my head
Wants to fight for you for the rest of my life
The pattern in my heart
Wants what's out of sight but never out of mind