"Beverly" lyrics

I used to have nothing, no money, felt no jealousy
Straight out of pressure, man, I did that every night
She ain't gon' wake up now, she took a hit of ketamine
Yeah, the way I party now has turned into a vice
My list of wins comes with a bigger list of enemies
I don't have no one to talk to that I like
And all these bitches, they just strip me off my energy
What the fuck, what am I doing with my life?

I don't have no one to talk to that I like
What the fuck, what am I doing with my life?
I don't have no one to talk to late at night
What the fuck, what am I doing with my life?

It's the death of a superstar
As we enter into the dark
If you're afraid of who you are
Remember it's an illusion, you're only human

All this time I took out chasing my identity
I was chasing nothing, I was just wasting my time
Creating chaos was my motto and my remedy
Lighting up the dark with art that kept me safe at night
And when I sing about the dark, I'm talking ebony
And all the anxiety would take over my life
I told God to take my breath in all these memories
Now I'm gripping on my chest, it's feeling tight

I-I-I don't have no one to talk to that I like
What the fuck, what am I doing with my life?
I don't have no one to talk to late at night
What the fuck, what am I doing with my life?

(Are you okay?)
What the fuck, what am I doing with my