"what if?" lyrics

I wrote a letter
A passage you'll never read
(It feels like)
Being alone is better
It'll get bad if you're under me
(I've had)
To explain myself too many times to you
And there's no guide for my soul to help me out
(I've had)
To hide but I'm in plain sight to you
Feel like you kicked me out

What if you were all I had when you left?
It don't hit the same, I'm doing drugs by myself
You wanna play God and send me away
You know you're my Goddess
I gotta go

What if you were all I had when you left?
I think it's time to take that flight
I guess it was dumb to want you to myself
But I think I could change your mind

What if you were all I had when you left?
This shit not the same when I'm high by myself
Love me, love me not?
Baby I can't tell
You know you're my Goddess
I gotta go

What if you were all I had when you left?
I'm not having fun and my heads in a mess
I guess it was dumb to want you to myself
Why you don't treat me like God?
I gotta know

Can't let you go
Can't let you go
Can't let you go
Can't let you go

Can't let you go
Can't let you go
Can't let you go
Can't let you go