"Redemption" lyrics

I know the truth is that Im
On my own this life
I gotta be ruthless
I know my opponents is right?
What is it that
I got left in my tank
Bet on myself with
The rest of my bank
This passion and hatred
I smash it and break it and
I got my anger and effort to thank
What is deeper
Thats driving me further
I couldn't sleep
I was high from the fervor
Or haven't you heard
That I got a nerve
And I got a knack
For surviving a murder
I'm coming back with a fever
You'll be believers soon
He's a goon
Keep the ethos
Of a wolf in sheep clothes
But as soon as I see the moon
I'm full of greed and doom
Deceiving
What is it even meaning to em
I got a grievance
I can just heave it - boom
As soon as I leave the room
I'm on this craftsmanship again
I'm an assassin with the pen
This is no accident
It's acts of sin
Collapsing on your chin
I got an axe to pick again
You know the factions that I'm in
I been a part a
Poet, prophet preacher and pusher
Mostly a martyr
Closer to God
But the closer I get to my goals
Oh it just only gets harder
I got a hole in my soul - shit it's
The size of like most of Nevada
Maybe I'm supposed to just lay down and die
Maybe I'm supposed to do nada
But live with a karma that aint even mine
And roast from the ghosts of my father
The focus
It jolted you outta
Georgie it's time
That you leave these demons behind
Thrown in the garbage
Own what you gotta
This is a journey
Of freeing your mind
Lonely survivor
Feeling the tare of the thorn - that's
Where the spirit is torn
This is a serious wrong
All of this wrath
Now I see where it is born
This is a tool - this is the fuel
This is a world that so vicious and cruel
Sick and abused
Gimme the match
I got the flame to the
Wick and the fuse
Left with desperate resolve
Burn like the will of the sun
It's been a Desolate haul
I got a feeling that I'm
Feeling no pressure at all
This thrill of the hunt
This is my testament Dog
Now there's redemption involved
Odds are a million to one