"When I'm Gone" lyrics

Ayy, what you cookin'?
I hope you with me

I hope you with me if I lose
I hope you with me through everything that I go through
It ain't all about a win, sometimes a loss is a win too
I can't pretend that I ain't fucked
Up from the losses I've been through

I can't pretend, I can't pretend like I'm just
Openin' my heart when I know I can't let you in
I ain't gon' pretend like I don't miss you though
I'm tired of pretendin' like this bitch
Only could really fuck with you though
She can't, ever will

But my pride get in the way how I really feel
I was feelin' lost, I was feelin' down
Thinkin' 'bout my life and how crazy it turned around
Ain't it crazy how it turned?
Came from nothin', now I'm turnt
Came from shit, now I'm the shit
Went from broke to bein' rich
But I still can't shake the feelin' when I was broke I used to get
Made a vow like NBA, I ain't ever goin' broke again

Made a vow like NBA, I ain't ever goin' broke again
Back against the wall, wall against my back
Reality versus faith, faith versus that
Reality was, odds was against me
I should've lost and I could've gave up
All the dirt I been through, I came out of it covered in love

All the dirt I been through, I came out of it covered
I ain't got the answer to every problem, I can admit
I was lettin' shit go that I peaked, I could've tripped
I was doin' shit that I ain't have to
Could've got my lick back, but I felt that I ain't had to
I'm overwhelmed my blessings, I remember I was doin' bad too
Gave you plenty chances to cut you off because I had to

Now you look at me like I did somethin' wrong
Only thing I did wrong was me tryin' to pull you on
Me tryin' to put you in position to win and succeed
And it's crazy how I fell out with niggas I love over greed
I gave you that, how the fuck you put that stuff over me?
I won't lose the bitch I love for hoes that lust over me
And I think it's time I bring this shit to an end

Say my farewells to my family and friends
Thinkin' 'bout my kids, thinkin' 'bout the shit that I had did
Thinkin' 'bout the life that I had lived
Hopin' that the life that I had lived
Made a better life for my kids that I couldn't get
So I'm grindin' every day, grindin' 'til my heart stop pumpin'
So I can leave you somethin', 'cause my daddy ain't leave me nothin'

I'ma leave you somethin' when I'm gone (when I'm gone)
I'ma be somethin' when I'm gone (when I'm gone)
Gotta leave my mark before I'm gone (before I'm gone)
Gotta reach the top before I'm gone
They gon' talk about me when I'm gone
Don't bring no flowers, walk around me when I'm gone
(Don't bring no flowers, walk around me when I'm gone)

Hope I did enough, give them twins a better me
'Cause I done lost love, they could never say you wasn't down with me
If you alone, I don't change my number, hit my phone
If I don't pick up, I'm probably somewhere puttin' on somethin'
Ain't no direction, support ain't really supportin' me
And don't trust these hoes, givin' bad men no more and more of me
I still touch money, 'cause with my daddy, ain't no trickin' me
It was me and my mama, man, that's how, shit, ain't no bitch in me

To my Helmut Adler with my words on how they picture me
Literally, city really made a monster, ain't no fixin' me
Then on my own, I be surprised by what they did for me
When they speak on what they do for
Me, that shit, that be confusin' me
My shit more like poetry, Erykah mixed with flora tree
Andre 3000, other rappers be borin' me
So message in my music, hope you get it when I'm gone
When I'm gone home