"Discordia" lyrics

I felt the fire burning in my blood
And went from healing to falling
Before it all was gone
And weakness smothered every laughter
I went from nothing to an empty home
Struggled to keep going on
Fought my way out alone

I never wanted to be hurt in any way
So I build up a wall around myself
Pushing everyone away
Forever lost within
I never wanted to believe you cared for me
So I kept crawling in the misery
Sheltered in my agony
Forever lost within

All purpose fades without a hand to hold
Indifference hinders evolving
A mirror to the void
Reflecting questions without answers
I dare to lose you but not to be whole
That's the lesson that I learned
Letting my hopes unfold

I see them laughing in their happy homes
While I'm standing here alone
Wishing I was someone

I never wanted to be hurt in any way
So I build up a wall around myself
Pushing everyone away
Forever lost within
I never wanted to believe you cared for me
So I kept crawling in the misery
Sheltered in my agony
Forever lost within