"Lay In It Lonely" lyrics

These days I don't know myself
These walls like a prison cell
I'm home alone
I find holes in the fairy tales
Truth is I put you through hell
I know, case closed

One foot in front of the other
Hands on the rail so I don't go under
Everybody says I just got to get through the day

So I make my bed like a ghost in the morning
Pour a cold cup of coffee
With the smell of you on these sheets
In my own mess, I made my bed
And I lay in it, lonely
Got to lay in it, lonely
Got to stay in it knowing
I only did this to myself

Knees weak and these shaking hands
Too stubborn to make amends
Back then, back then
I was young, dumb, and innocent
I know, these cheap words don't mean anything
My friend, my friend

No, why everybody says I just got to get through the day

So I make my bed like a ghost in the morning
Pour a cold cup of coffee
With the smell of you on these sheets
In my own mess, I made my bed
And I lay in it, lonely
Got to lay in it, lonely
Got to stay in it knowing
I only did this to myself

This is nothing that flowers will fix
I could say sorry but it is what it is, what it is
All I can do now is hope you find someone who sees you
Someone who treats you like I never did
So I got to sit in this
I got to live with this now
Staring at the door I pushed you out of

So I make my bed like a ghost in the morning
Pour a cold cup of coffee
With the smell of you on these sheets
In my own mess, I made my bed
And I lay in it, lonely
Got to lay in it, lonely
Got to stay in it knowing
I only did this to myself