"Parking Lot" lyrics

I saw you yesterday
I didn't even say hi
I know you don't deserve that
But I couldn't find the words

I let em out in my best friend's car
Just calling you things that I know you aren't
A gas lighter, a fake ass crier, and stupid
An impostor but I'm a liar
Cause the truth is

I don't wanna let you go
Holdin' onto threads of hope
I'd rather hate you
If I don't get to have you anymore

Sorry that I've been so cold
Maybe it was all my fault
I had to make you the enemy
So I can keep you close

Oh I'm covered in tears in this parking lot
Holding this grudge cause it's all I've got

4 years and 20 bad fights
Black outs and little white lies
It's easier to look back
And leave out all the good nights

Said goodbye in your parents yard
Was calling you things that I know you aren't
Your a player, manipulator
But the truth is

I don't wanna let you go
Holdin' onto threads of hope
I'd rather hate you
If I don't get to have you anymore

Sorry that I've been so cold
Maybe it was all my fault
I had to make you the enemy
So I can keep you close

Oh I'm covered in tears in this parking lot
Holding this grudge cause it's all I've got

I had your Friday midnights
Kissin' in blurry headlights
Had your heavenly shoulder to cry on
In the back of the taxi saying take me home
Now I'm left on my own and you took it all
Your perfect body and all of your clothes
Out the door while you left me with nothing
But blood on my hands and nothing to hold

But I don't wanna let you go
Holdin' onto threads of hope
I'd rather hate you
If I don't get to have you anymore

Sorry that I've been so cold
Maybe it was all my fault
I had to make you the enemy
So I can keep you close

Oh I'm covered in tears in this parking lot
Holding this grudge cause it's all I've got