"Bleed Through" lyrics

Every time I pick up a pen
It's all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast
And like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
The words, they bleed through

Get back in my arms, they're
Just hanging by my side
Losing hold of you has
Left me dry
Tell me where you run to –
Where do you hide?
You know you never once
Left my mind
Tell yourself I'm sorry
For the things that I've done
Tell yourself you've never seen
The barrel of that gun
Tell yourself it's over now
And not to run
Just tell yourself I'm sorry
For what I've done

Every time I pick up a pen
It's all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast
And like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
Your words, they bleed through

Listen while I'm talking
I don't do it too much
I can't help feeling
That came between us
What ever happened to
The way that it was?
The one thing I can't have
Is what I want…
Who decided it's gonna
End up this way?
Who decided that you
Could not stay?
You won't be here by
The end of my day
‘Cuz I can't even listen
To the words I say

But every time I pick up a pen
It's all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast
And like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
Your words, they bleed through

I swear you never really miss it till it's half
Gone and you tighten up your grip trying to
Hold on didn't really appreciate it when it's
In your arms and you can relate to every
Word in your song like was I wrong? But
I know I'm right but in hindsight, I
Blame the limelight maybe I just needed
Time to get my mind right maybe we'll
Reconnect when the times right trying to think
About the causes – was I too bossy – exactly
What the cause is I was told to step in love
With some caution ‘cuz love and shit is no
Difference in the darkness but love is where
The heart is and you can see the
Blood as it's dripping through the gauzes
So I guess I fell out of love with her smile
And more in love with applauses

It's quiet in my house
Your silence is my home
And everything reminds me
That I am all alone
It's quiet where you used to be
And now that you're gone
It's not a sound, not a word
But a dial tone
It's quiet when I'm drinking
It's quiet when I smoke
It's … when I'm eating, oh
And I sleep all alone
It's quiet now, it was louder
Then, I stand still like a stone
Only from my dreams you won't go

Every time I pick up a pen
It's all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast
And like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
Your words, they bleed through

How did I get in this predicament was I
Influenced by the benefits ‘cuz I was hitting
On so many chicks, loving you and leaving
You was the only sentiment but I guess I
Wasn't ready for you ‘cuz I'm rubbing your
Feet, cooking spaghetti for you
Taking you to parka, winning teddies for you
But in my heart I'm thinking there's someone
Better for you but my heart's like “No, not this
Again cut it out Black, you know how
This'll end.” And I swear that I really was
Listening but my _______ was yelling and my
Heart was just whispering so you know who
I listened to now my heart's bitching ‘cuz he's
Missing you got my eyes staring at some old
Flicks of you and my nose swear that he still
Smells the scent of you and my soul's saying
“Damn, she was meant for you”

Why won't you come back
I'm losing part of myself
I've been wondering, watching
waiting so long
I've been talking I been listening
I've been writing my songs
I've been hoping you've been
hearing on this radio now
That I'm not with you
But I MISS YOU