"Suicide" lyrics

Permanent scars on my soul last forever
I'm feeling low wish this high was forever
Don't even know if my dog got to heaven
But if blow for blow then gon' come and we step in
It's an ocean in my heart but baby girl I can't swim
I gave it my all hopin' you could love me still
I'm thuggin under god, say "I die how I live"
I tried to forget but I just can't forgive
I reminisce, it make me shed a tear
Sing in my cell, I just wish you were here
Fellow had no bed, they locked him up for a year
I go through hell just to see how it feel

This that shit that make you suicide
All these diamonds on lil' Soldier, look like suicide
Say you run up on lil' Soldier, it's a do or die
Girl, it feel like Minnesota, 'cause my heart on ice
Pourin' lean all in my soda, I can sleep the night

'Cause them demons keep me up
Why the troubles lookin' for us
Why my girl don't give me no love
Why I always keep this gun
Why them niggas think they tough
Like them niggas can't get touched
Like yo' head can't get bust

They ain't ride like they said
Fill my body with these meds
When they ask what he did
Say "I ran up my bread'
When they ask how he lived
Say "I lived by that X"
Right now I'm loading up my clip
Put a bullet through my head

This that shit that make you suicide
All these diamonds on lil' Soldier, look like suicide
Say you run up on lil' Soldier, it's a do or die
Girl, it feel like Minnesota, 'cause my heart on ice
Pourin' lean all in my soda, make you suicide
All these diamonds on lil' Soldier, look like suicide
Say you run up on lil' Soldier, it's a do or die
Girl, it feel like Minnesota, 'cause my heart on ice
Pourin' lean all in my soda, I can sleep the night

'Cause them demons keep me up
Why the troubles lookin' for us
Why my girl don't give me no love
Why I always keep this gun
Why them niggas think they tough
Like them niggas can't get touched
Like yo' head can't get bust

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