"This Is What 21 Feels Like" lyrics

I moved into my first apartment
First night spilled red wine on the carpet
I guess this is what twenty-one feels like
I left before the party started
Got scared you'd be there, break my heart, and
I guess this is what twenty-one feels like

I know that it's over, I go home, call it closure
Feels like our story ends before it begins again and again
I know that I love you, but I need something brand new
So I'll let it end and try to begin again

I get sick of staying busy
But get more sick wishing you were with me
I guess this is what moving on feels like
I do the dishes and the laundry
So I'll stop checking if you've called me
I guess this is what moving on feels like

I know that it's over, but I still want you closer
Feels like our story ends before it begins again and again
I know that I love you, but I need something brand new
So I'll let it end and try to begin again
I wonder if you want me still, 'cause you know I always will
And the more that I change, you're the one thing I can't change
I wonder if you see my eyes, when you go to sleep at night
'Cause the more that I change know I'm still in the same place