"8 Minute Mile" lyrics

Some claim to love me, say it aloud, but ain't meant it
I came up thuggin' where every smile just ain't friendly

I wrote all of this while I took a jog around the lake
I be missin' you every step that I take
Every move I make, I'm still processin' the grief
Shock and disbelief ever ends
All the words I never said play in my head on repeat
Keep havin' the same dreams, sometimes, I dread goin' to sleep
I wake up lookin' for you and all I find is memories
For the things I cannot change, grant me the serenity
Amen, I'm either cryin' or prayin'
Seekin' peace on my lonely 'cause I keep findin' fake friends
When the grind ain't payin', it kinda tries my patience
Although I bare my soul, no time for hibernation
If you was here, you'd tell me strive for greatness
I can see you smilin' sayin' it
It's like I can hear you yellin', that's how I did this mile in eight minutes
Some claim to love me, say it aloud, but ain't meant it
I came up thuggin' where every smile just ain't friendly
I took a vow and can't get out once you in it
But I'm tired of runnin', yeah, it's about time that I finish
Lyin' to myself, nothin' wrong with cryin' if it helps
I'm goin' all in, can't buy in, it's nothin' left
Goin' all in on the blind
Can't buy in, it's nothin' left
Well, I can't rebuy, and I can't deny
It's what's in 'em like Japanese denim or some plain Levis
What I mean, it's in my genes, kings, queens, and fiends
Might witness a murder scene and say, "We ain't seen a thing"

Desensitized
Niggas get shot every day