"Never Mine" lyrics

I have this thing about dying
Pretend I'm not fighting, keep it inside
I'm always fighting and flying
Just surviving, trying to add time

If it comes in waves, then why run away?
Knowing that it's out of my hands
There's not a day that You haven't made
My control was never part of the plan

All those days and nights I was driving blind
There was a reason I came back alive
You were close to me when I tried to hide
Never a day that You passed me by
You made our time, painted blue in the sky
Held tears I was keeping inside
It's funny how I had a grip on my life
When I was holding what was never mine, never mine

Why is my instinct to spiral?
Nothing is final until the end
My hope sits on a tightrope
So I pray with my eyes closed and start to give in

If it comes in waves, then why run away?
Knowing that it's out of my hands
There's not a day that You haven't made
My control was never part of the plan

All those days and nights I was driving blind
There was a reason I came back alive
You were close to me when I tried to hide
Never a day that You passed me by
You made our time, painted blue in the sky
Held tears I was keeping inside
It's funny how I had a grip on my life
When I was holding what was never mine, never mine

It was never mine
It was never mine

All those days and nights, I was driving blind
There was a reason I came back alive
It's funny how I had a grip on my life
When I was holding what was never mine, never mine