"Mercury" lyrics

Gemini
I'm a myth and I'm a legend
Who never wins
And might not ever play again
Keep falling in
Love so fast then back out again
Speeding
When I should ease in

Oh I know myself, my sins
Dug my pit then I fell in
Pulled the trigger, killed us both
Lesson learned but truth gets old

Little of heaven, little unpleasant
I don't know
Little of pleasure, little depression
I don't know
Little of heaven, little unpleasant
I don't know
How can I tell if? How can I measure?
If I don't know

I looked up at the ceiling
As I draft my "I'm so sorry" text
Don't regret the choice I chose
But do regret the mess I made
I see you hurt and wish
I could just hold you tight and close
Don't need long, just wanna say
I love you and miss you most

Oh I know myself, my skin
Rolling stones don't crawl back in
Daddy's faults fell down on me
Break that curse for sweet relief

Little of heaven, little unpleasant
I don't know
Little of pleasure, little depression
I don't know
Little of heaven, little unpleasant
I don't know
How can I tell if? How can I measure?
If I don't know

Mercury running amuck in my mind
Can't tell if I'm winning or falling behind
Venus in retrograde got me in bed
And thinking 'bout all of the shit that I said
Gemini scope give me depth 'till I'm dead
But I can't seem to get the fuck out my head
Well fuck it, I'll just cop a Porsche instead
I do as I please and you see where it lead
Guess something bad ain't 'bout to happen to me
You think I'm two-faced, I can name twenty-three

My layers, all these sides
Could you stick by for the ride?
It's a thrill
And I don't even know how to feel
Might be too real
Might be too
Real
Might be too real, real
I said might be too
I said might be too real real
I said might be too real

Excuse me if I lied
I forgot I said that
Can you forgive my tongue?
I'll show you where my head at
I don't think I'm the one
But I could be your girlfriend
'Till retrograde is done