"What If" lyrics

At first I didn't care
But she kept on trying
And I was not aware
So I gave it a try

I thought she had feelings too
But when I went back home she went back to that guy

What if I am just one more score for her?
What if I'd said "no" when she'd first asked me?
All those thoughts are driving me crazy
I can't get over 'em
What if I was the easy way for her?

I guess I'm wrong again
We were not together
She said I was a friend
I thought we were more that this

And now when she tells me "I love you"
I don't even know if it's true
I feel so lost

I saw and heard things I wish I could get outta my head
It's not that easy for me when she's the first girl I gave my heart and my trust to…

What if I am just one more score for her?
What if I'd said "no" when she'd first asked me?
What if she's not the one I thought she was?
What if she loves me but I just can't see it?
All those thoughts are driving me crazy
I can't get over 'em
What if I can't go on living this way?