"Happiest" lyrics

Second floor apartment
Yeah, that's where it started
Found out only fake flowers bloom in the darkness
Hole where my heart is, you fell in regardless
Went and ate the apple then got thrown out of the garden
It happens every time

It's hard to say where it all went wrong
Been feeling this way for way too long
The pain goes away on the days you're gone
Yeah

I'm the happiest
When you're not here
So sorry my dear
But I'm the loneliest
When it's just us, I don't know why you trust me
When I crush you, it's gon' crush me
But it won't hurt that much
'Cause I'm the happiest
When you're not here
So sorry my dear

Staring blank when you see me
Static on the TV
Watching when you walk away, the furthest thing from easy
If I genie, I'd wish you wouldn't need me
Wish it was your fault so I could cut you off completely
I wish you wouldn't cry

It's hard to say where it all went wrong
Been feeling this way for way too long
The pain goes away on the days you're gone
Yeah

I'm the happiest
When you're not here
So sorry my dear
But I'm the loneliest
When it's just us, I don't know why you trust me
When I crush you, it's gon' crush me
But it won't hurt that much
'Cause I'm the happiest
When you're not here
So sorry my dear

Nothing in the silence (Happiest)
No where in this silence (Happiest)
Never pray for timing (Happiest)
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