"In My Blood" lyrics

Is this the part where I meet my confessor
Eternal media rez?
Did I choose or acquiesce to the pressure
Was it me or the stress?

My condition is chronic
If I'm being dishonest
I'd say that I'm fine
But that's a lie
Cause I'm not fine

Apathy ain't what it used to be
I'm running
This river's running
I'm tired of being what I used to be
I'm running
This river's running

In my blood
In my blood

Is this the verse where I curse my aggressor?
Could violence ever bring peace?
Does my hate make me greater or lesser?
Where do I find my release?

I'm a losing wager
And if I'm acting stranger
It's cause I'm strange
Cause I'm not fine
Yeah I'm not fine

Apathy ain't what it used to be
I'm running
This river's running
I'm tired of being what I'll never be
I'm running
This river's running

In my blood
In my blood

Is this the place where I'm faced with my jailor?
The enemy of my soul?
And is my fear just the fear of my failure?
That makes my blood run cold?

In my blood
In my blood
In my blood
In my blood