"Absent" lyrics

I caught a glimpse in the corner of my eye
I think I knew what I would find
But there's something else at play
And everything at stake
And so the river's calling me, calling me away

I'm no saint
I've no virtue
I wish I could feel
That you hurt too
But it's so dark I can't tell
God from the devil
I'm just absent
More than ever

Can't outrun my head
So I'll tell myself
I have a right to feel this way
So I stepped into the maze
And all it did was take
And now on a long way from all I know

I'm no saint
I've no virtue
I wish I could feel
That you hurt too
But it's so dark I can't tell
God from the devil
I'm just absent
More than ever

I surrender
I'm incomplete
I've had all I can take
So take me in pieces

I'm no saint
I've no virtue
I wish I could feel
That you hurt too
But it's so dark I can't tell
God from the devil
I'm just absent
More than ever