"IN MY HEAD" lyrics

So what the fuck is life if it ain't a bitch?
Tell what the fuck it mean if the point ain't really none of this
Cuz I been groovin' tough for 33
Way before the scene I couldn't sleep
It ain't alignin' mane I'm incomplete
But fuck that, flash forward: I'm an idol
Bitches at my shows believe in me like I'm in da bible
So why I'm sittin on this cali king bed
Loaded eagle to my head yearnin' for the smell of lead?
Can you tell me?
Why my bank account loud
But dis big black cloud still surround every part of me
Why I can't feel the ground with my feet?
Never sound when I sleep
I'm tryna get it outta me
It's like my thoughts live outside of myself
Never lookin' out for help cuz I'm hatin' on myself
So red pill or blue, da pen or da glock?
Ima tell em I'm good but keep my eye on the clock

And I'll be, livin' in my head once again
Then I'll be, stuck up in my head once again
But I'll be, in my fuckin' head once again
Guess I'll be, livin' in my head till da end

Da situation critical man, shit been goin' south
Constant second guessing, I'm a mess, I guess it never levels out
Homie askin' wat I'm bout like all I wanna do pout
I'm just lookin' for a cue to keep the gun up out my mouth
I been thinkin' man, dreamin' of some other time
Similar to this, but like a version that just really isn't mine
Where everything I thought turned out to be da truth
And I can prove it wrong, instead, I'm runnin' to da roof
But when I jump off, my body droppin' slower than it should
Instead of death I'm met with somethin' worse I understood
That I'll never be the one I really wanna be
So as I glide into beyond I struggle more to hold a memory
I am the enemy I shout it as I drop
The only thing I see before I die will be the devil's plot
Further I go I feel my soul rot
Hopin' I hit the ground soon man, it's gettin' hot
Fuck

And I'll be, livin' in my head once again
Then I'll be, stuck up in my head once again
But I'll be, in my fuckin' head once again
Guess I'll be, livin' in my head till da end