"Deadfast" lyrics

I'm beginning to think that my mind and soul are polar opposites
Where did it all go wrong?
Things are so far gone
How do I still exist?

Nailed dead fast to the wall
Crucified by every thought

Repeat
Over and over
Make sure it's all perfect and in place
Bite my knuckles
Crack my fingers
Dwelling on events that will never occur
Slave to myself
A hazard to my health
Slave to myself
A hazard to my health
Obsessive compulsive suffering

Where did it all go wrong?
Things are so far gone
How do I still exist?

All I do is count
Use the same sayings that help calm me down
Check the door what seems like a hundred times
Only to walk back
It's just people don't understand
Think I'm a freak, crazy for how I am
Making remarks like it's their job
Always talking in my ear
They say "you need to fix this
You need to focus on that
Take these meds
Stop acting like that."
Well, the ten step program didn't work worth shit
Now what am I supposed to do?

Where did it all go wrong?
Things are so far gone
Where did it all go wrong?
Things are so far gone
How do I still exist?
How do I still exist?

Nailed dead fast to the wall
Crucified by every thought

Where did it all go wrong?
Things are so far gone

Nailed dead fast to the wall
Crucified by every thought