"Will To Give" lyrics

I thought you weren't contagious I thought I owned my inner-self
You offer, now I forget the reason I can't have
As you try hard to please me this need turns to greed down inside
I touch the hand of my sickness and feel my faith divide

If I said I would, would you care? Would you take me there?
And feed my desire with your will to give

A distant storm and the lightning strikes the pouring rain feels warm tonight
Thunder echoes and the lesson begins as one more time you take me in
But I look back at you and think of all the things I should have said and done
But I can't talk no I can't talk I try to hide myself from shame
And try to share the blame for what I've done what have I done?

Now I said I would, do you care as you take me there
I taste my first time and now I can't turn away
I lie to myself like a man trying to understand
As you change my life with your will to give

I see disgrace and it's looking back at me
Blame my desire for lies I live and breathe
Begin again though the hardest part to take
Behind my eyes you still remain

I thought you'd understand when you took me there
The hardest part to take you still remain