"Falling" lyrics

Feelings I hide from you
As I reach you my hand
The stain of guilt sticks in my head
This perception I cannot longer stand

Aware of all mistakes I made
Hoping for rainy clouds to fade
As I slowly die
Here inside my mind

I still see your dark reflection on the walls as winter falls
A glimpse of the moment, a touch in the dark
The warmth I still recall

From this day, I vow
Far too long I tried
Hoping for forgiveness of the heart
You're waiting
She decided to come back, she decided to stay for a while
Hoping for the change that could never happen
The change of the soul and the mind
Please return...

Feels like I'm falling away from you, this time...

And as I recall my downwards fall, it fills me with anger and hate
As I realise I lost you that time, and now it's far too late