"pretender" lyrics

I'll pretend that it's OK
Like everyone else
Drowning in my misery
Like it's not so bad
I'll just keep my distance from
Thoughts I won't come back
I don't wanna listen to
My soul it's alright

I don't wanna see the truth
No, thank you
I'm fine
I just wanna live like you
Don't call me "lowlife"
Don't wanna see your proofs
So lonely nights I
Don't wanna listen to you

Lost myself on purpose
'Cause I don't like
Don't like
What's my soul hiding
I just wanna let it go
Don't cry
Don't cry

Well I know my tears
Never fix my fears
And my wounds won't heal
If I'll be like this
I'm alone right here
And no
No one hears
For how many years?
I forgot fuck this

Damn I feel alone I can't help it
Is it just a thing you ever heard before?
Yeah
You think I'm selfish (yeah I'm selfish)
But I'm just tryna find my way to restore

I don't want you to be on my home screen no more
You don't want me to leave because you scared to be alone

I just wanna let it go
I just wanna let it go
I just wanna let it go
I just wanna let it go

Yesterday I saw you in a bad dream
And I'm not feeling secure
I told you all I ever felt now we don't talk anymore
You know I kept my word before you just slammed that door
Now I'm just stuck in my head
It doesn't feel like love

OK
I feel sick
Different time zones
I can't sleep
With my eyes closed
Got slurred speech
With no drugs
I hate you
But I love us

Can't make a move
I'm so scared
Got lucid dreams
I see nightmares
I'll pretend
That it's OK
Let's pretend
That it's OK

I'll pretend that it's OK
Like everyone else
Drowning in my misery
Like it's not so bad
I'll just keep my distance from
Thoughts I won't come back
I don't wanna listen to
My soul it's alright

I don't wanna see the truth
No thank you
I'm fine
I just wanna
Live like you
Don't call me "lowlife"
Don't wanna see your proofs
So lonely nights I
Don't wanna listen to you