"A Prayer" lyrics

(I see the demons in my head in red, in red)
(I see the demons in my head in red, in red)

I pray for strength so I can never be beat
God gave me enemies that I have to be strong to defeat
I pray for money 'cause I was so sick and tired of being broke
He made me poor to motivate me to get rich on my own
I pray for courage so I can stop being scared and afraid
He gave me danger so that I can toughen up and be brave
I pray for fame so everybody in the world would show love to me
And God gave me haters, taught me to cherish my company
And I never spent much time in church or memorized a Bible verse
But every time I think I'm dying, I say "Hi" and hope it's heard
The devil follows every step that echoes in the universe
I'm praying for directions, God rebuilds the bridges I have burnt (burnt)
And Jesus didn't use to appeal, thought he's a coping mechanism for the weakness in people
But there has to be good as long as there is an evil
So the only proof I need is the devil is real

I see the demons in my head in red, in red
I see the demons in my head in red, in red

I ain't the one to push religion down your throat
I mean, I see church and I don't even go
I do take time to show thanks on my own
To me, I believe a prayer's worth more than gold
I really do suffer from anxiety and panic
Sometimes I smile, I'm just lying, I can't stand it
Heart starts pounding so I gotta call an ambulance
Feel like I'm dying, tryna live, but I can't do it
On my knees, pray for peace with the war that rages inside of me
Please tell me there's better days, gotta be
If I don't make it out the storm, I'm lost to the sea
This is real, don't tell me to chill
People take their own life or kill
This is my life and how I feel
I write these words sitting right by my pills
It might be a crutch, but right now it's my shield

I see the demons in my head in red, in red
I see the demons in my head in red, in red
I see the demons in my head in red, in red
I see the demons in my head in red, in red