"Terrified" lyrics
(feat. Nova Rockafeller)
I wanted to get sober for a year, but I kept on finding beer
I'd look inside my fridge and it would magically appear
I'd meet up with my friends and everybody's saying "Cheers"
It's crazy how your favorite thing can cause so many tears
Used to drink a beer and smoke a joint at 7AM
I swear to God I needed something just to get out of bed
"Live fast, die young" is what I heard that they said
And it sounds pretty cool till you're practically dead
I was ugly, I was broken, I was losing my mind
The doctor said that if I took the pills I'd be fine
And I was anxious, I was hopeless, so I gave them a try
And I followed the dosage, but then it ruined my life
Seven years sober, every second is hard
Every time I leave the house and I pass by a bar
I got a voice inside my head that's saying "Stop, park the car"
Let's have a drink and celebrate because we've made it this far
They told me I won't change till they cry at my grave
I'm terrified that they might be right, yeah
Well maybe I can't change, but I'll fight every day
I'm terrified that I won't survive it
I wanted to get sober for a day, throw the drugs away
But addictions that took years to build ain't that easy to break
When the beer is always cheap and the bar tender knows your name
"Go 'head and put it on my tab" is what you're always gonna say
I used to put a case of beer beside my bed before sleep
I would pass out smoking weed and burn a hole in the sheets
"Live fast, die young" is what they always would preach
And it sounds pretty cool till you're struggling to breathe
I was lonely, I was stupid, I was drunk in a wreck
The doctor give me pills and said they'd help with the stress
But I was suicidal, overwhelmed, and depressed
So I took the fucking pills and they just made a mess
Now I'm seven years sober, everyday is a journey
Every time I pass the liquor mart, my ears start burning
There's a voice inside my head saying "Lets get some bourbon"
And celebrate how well sobriety has been working
They told me I won't change till they cry at my grave
I'm terrified that they might be right, yeah
Well maybe I can't change, but I'll fight every day
I'm terrified that I won't survive it
I'm terrified of the ride that I'm on
But I made my mind up, I'm gonna be strong
I'm terrified of the person I was
But I'm a fighter, and I'm gonna rise up
They told me I won't change till they cry at my grave
I'm terrified that they might be right, yeah
Well maybe I can't change, but I'll fight every day
I'm terrified that I won't survive it
I'd look inside my fridge and it would magically appear
I'd meet up with my friends and everybody's saying "Cheers"
It's crazy how your favorite thing can cause so many tears
Used to drink a beer and smoke a joint at 7AM
I swear to God I needed something just to get out of bed
"Live fast, die young" is what I heard that they said
And it sounds pretty cool till you're practically dead
I was ugly, I was broken, I was losing my mind
The doctor said that if I took the pills I'd be fine
And I was anxious, I was hopeless, so I gave them a try
And I followed the dosage, but then it ruined my life
Seven years sober, every second is hard
Every time I leave the house and I pass by a bar
I got a voice inside my head that's saying "Stop, park the car"
Let's have a drink and celebrate because we've made it this far
They told me I won't change till they cry at my grave
I'm terrified that they might be right, yeah
Well maybe I can't change, but I'll fight every day
I'm terrified that I won't survive it
I wanted to get sober for a day, throw the drugs away
But addictions that took years to build ain't that easy to break
When the beer is always cheap and the bar tender knows your name
"Go 'head and put it on my tab" is what you're always gonna say
I used to put a case of beer beside my bed before sleep
I would pass out smoking weed and burn a hole in the sheets
"Live fast, die young" is what they always would preach
And it sounds pretty cool till you're struggling to breathe
I was lonely, I was stupid, I was drunk in a wreck
The doctor give me pills and said they'd help with the stress
But I was suicidal, overwhelmed, and depressed
So I took the fucking pills and they just made a mess
Now I'm seven years sober, everyday is a journey
Every time I pass the liquor mart, my ears start burning
There's a voice inside my head saying "Lets get some bourbon"
And celebrate how well sobriety has been working
They told me I won't change till they cry at my grave
I'm terrified that they might be right, yeah
Well maybe I can't change, but I'll fight every day
I'm terrified that I won't survive it
I'm terrified of the ride that I'm on
But I made my mind up, I'm gonna be strong
I'm terrified of the person I was
But I'm a fighter, and I'm gonna rise up
They told me I won't change till they cry at my grave
I'm terrified that they might be right, yeah
Well maybe I can't change, but I'll fight every day
I'm terrified that I won't survive it
