"Loops" lyrics

How can I explain?
Blood in my veins
Like liquid pain
Ancestral shame
How women were tamed
How men behaved
My lineage
Cyclical rage

Child brides then child widows
Orphans on both sides
Silenced women, silenced children
The fear of God
But the wrath of humans
The domestic, the righteous
The Book of Genesis
And the night shifts
We barely made ends meet
We were always on our feet
Moving from one place to another
One face became another
Just a kid taking shelter
How do you make someonelike me?
You repress a generation
How do you create an outburst of identity?
You gaslight a generation
You can only stop the wave for so long before the tidal
You can only tie the hands and not the eyeballs
The caste system divided my family
The backwaters and the sugar cane fields
Now all they had to their name
Kicked out of the temple
Land we owned
But exiled from Hindu to Christian
From chosen to orphan
And so I descend
If you look at the chain
You see good girls and bad boys
If you look at the chain
You see a world underwater with no gills
You can't breathe
You can't swim deeper
You can't even sleep
Stay awake so you don't drown
Stay alert so you won't get put back down

(They say women can't be God)
Women can't be solo
Women can't be rappers
Women can't talk about sexuality
It's blasphemous
But in their contrast
They created me
The darkness reveals the light
The righteous inspires the rebellion
And fuck am I inspired

How can I explain?
Blood in my veins
Like liquid pain
Ancestral shame
How women were tamed
How men behaved
My lineage
Cyclical rage

(When I see your face)
(My lineage, cyclical rage)
(She wouldn't say my name)
(My lineage)