"Always Think Of You" lyrics

I was young and narcissistic
Hellishly ambitious
Searching for some solid ground to stand upon
And reckless, all my actions senseless
Never thought of consequence
Until the day I heard you'd come along

And every night when I feel the space
I hold on tight to my pillowcase
Try to get a sense of you
Green, hazel or blue
Staring back at me like a loaded gun

I never knew it would hurt so much
To want to love someone
In everything I do, in every stranger's face
In all the open places that I'm running to
I always think of you

A wave of indecision that never seems to break
A trail of hearts left bleeding in its wake
And in my search to be someone
I lost sight of what I've become
I can't recognize the sunken eyes
That are staring back at me like a loaded gun

I never knew it would hurt so much
To want to love someone
In everything I do, every stranger's face
In all the open places that I'm running to
I always think of you

I've been up since yesterday
Been counting cars and wandering
Through avenues and alleyways
But it's all the same
Cause in every open place
That I stop into
It never numbs the pain
Like I want it to
I always think of you