"Spade Head" lyrics

I know what it's like
To run for miles and not
Go anywhere
But I still don't wanna stop
I'm up on this dream
And I can't come down for now
Can you keep a secret?
I think that I've forgotten how

I'm a fanatic
I am a thankless servant
I'll take the spade head
Shovel if I deserve it
Spit off of the ledge
At the event horizon
I hear the gnashing
Jaws at the gates of Heaven

Left me at twilight
On the step of the seventh house
A twin-horse god
I'm an only child now
A neutron star
Lunar Aquarian
I'm a billion tons
My embrace is infinite

I'm a fanatic
I am a thankless servant
I'll take the spade head
Shovel if I deserve it
Spit off of the ledge
At the event horizon
I hear the gnashing
Jaws at the gates of Heaven