"Alone In December" lyrics

You always amazed me, but that's the past
You always amazed me, but that's the past

I kept silent and it rained for days
My insides were drenched, but I guess that's the part of growing
Up, I never wanted to learn
Wanted to learn, to learn

And I grew into the man that you never knew, but I wouldn't be
This way if it weren't for you, a hundred "thank you"s
If this is love, fairy tales never came true
Judies are black in full bloom, and I died in the womb

Take it back, all that's gone
It's all still there like you left it
December stayed the same, nothing ever changed but you
Nothing ever changed but you

Every dream covered in dents, love can't fly tonight
Couples will rest, I'll be sleepless
So cry yourself to sleep, this is about broken hearts
This is about me, bending again for nothing, nothing

I'd run to you, but pain awaits
I'm coming home, but I'll be late
No deeper than imagination can be
Sight with nothing to see

What's faith if I can't believe?
It's everything, a cure
But I make it
A disease

God, take me!
Because I hate me!