"KILLING ALCHEMY" lyrics

I got my heart lost in turmoil
Spirit in a hole
Sinking deeper in the depth
Lower than it goes
Grimy like a fiend
Yea I been cravin' mo'
I put myself in harms way
Because I gotta know
Why you do wrong to me
The pushin' and forth
And when I curse about you
I still don't feel remorse
It's like a thousand knives
Forced into my eyes
Carving out the shape of you
So incandescent

Fuck givin' into what you did
Tryna fool me by demeaning everything I've been
Hoe
You should've kept it at the absence
Know I don't need you
Cause lately I feel like I'm lackin' my cadence
I'm ruminating
Hesitation
Cause it's the same cycle
I'm so sick of all the waiting
To burn slow
My back to the wall
A fire in my chest
I feel it ripping through my flesh
Leave me restless

Ain't no coming back
This is forever

You got a stronghold
With no chance to break
Killing alchemy
What you doin' to me?
Get out of my head
All that talk is cheap
Nevermore to be
Nothing more to me
And I should know how
When I'm with company
All the misery
Drives me wickedly
I ain't myself
Cause you took a toll on me
Killing alchemy
Killing alchemy

Do you know the animosity you think I show
Do you know the reason why I'll never let it go

Good riddance
Knock off the dust
Abrasive
I need to clear my mind
X it off
Just as I face 'em
And thank you for the venom
But I'd rather use my own
Ain't no need for all the dealing
I'll destroy myself alone
Pessimistic
Mindfucked
So sadistic
Cause every fuckin' thought I form
It's got me feelin' twisted
Demented
Of my volition
I'm missin' the part of me
That never felt like someone was suspicious
I'm faithless
Don't have discretion for no one
Cause everyone around me
Is a factor of the build up
Destruction
If I explode I'll make a statement
But you don't get to walk away
Because I'm fuckin' caving
That's bullshit

I'll see you in hell motherfucker

You got a stronghold
With no chance to break
Killing alchemy
What you doin' to me?
Get out of my head
All that talk is cheap
Nevermore to be
Nothing more to me
And I should know how
When I'm with company
All the misery
Drives me wickedly
I ain't myself
Cause you took a toll on me
Killing alchemy
Killing alchemy

Conflicted by detriment
Why the fuck would you watch me living in turmoil
This animosity
I wonder if you ever face your pain alone
Conflicted by detriment
Why the fuck would you do what you never would tell
So every day I hope
That I'll see you in hell motherfucker, oh

You got a stronghold
With no chance to break
I'll live in agony
And see you in hell
You got a stronghold
With no chance to break
I'll live in agony
And see you in hell