"Dissociate" lyrics

Never thought that I would have to be
A soldier on a barricade built by me
My walls keep building high
And I never take the time to explain myself
To you

I push you away like I know what's going on
I hit replay on the same old sad song
I know that I keep pushing you away
But I need you even when I'm not okay
Yeah baby, I need you even when I'm not okay

Always knew that I would be this way
Sabotage myself to have some space
It's so hard to see that everything I need's right in front of me
Oh yeah

Push you away like I know what's going on
I hit replay on the same old sad song
I know that I keep pushing you away
Baby, I need you even when I'm not okay
Yeah baby, I need you even when I'm not okay

And all this time I've spent alone I know that I can't feel
Like I wanna shut my eyes and let go of the steering wheel
But I take a breath and pray
That I last another day
I don't know If I can last another day

Push you away like I know what's going on
I hit replay on the same old sad song
I know that I keep pushing you away
Baby, I need you even when I'm not okay
Oh, I need you even when I'm not okay
I need you even when I'm not okay
I need you even when I'm not okay
I need you even when I'm not okay