"Ghost // Pains" lyrics

I have said goodbye a thousand times
It never seems to feel right
I've gazed in your eyes
When I close mine I see your face
And I wait up all night
Screaming in a void that never answers me
When I say
I wish I could see you again

And it'll always kill me
Knowing all that time
We let slip without batting an eye
Without knowing life's passing you by
And I don't wanna lose anyone else
I'm sick of dragging that hurt around
I hang on every sentence
Every moment is precious spent with the people I love

I can't exist in the present moment
I know what's beyond the bend
I'm pessimistic when I look ahead
At the future reality sets in
Waiting for that pin to fall
And loss to crush me evermore

Screaming into a void
That never answers me (That never answers me)
I don't wanna lose anyone else (anyone else)
I'm sick of dragging the hurt around

Why is it always bad news
That rolls off the tongue
Am I supposed to grieve till I'm numb?
I can't exist in the present moment
I know what's beyond the bend
I'm pessimistic when I look ahead
Reality is setting in

Sing me to sleep
Another night hard to breathe
Why couldn't it be me?

When I come to visit, it'll be a grave site
Where I'll see your name carved up alongside stone

Silence it speaks volumes
More than words can say
I froze when I learned you died today
I feel so helpless, I feel so guilty
An ambulance is taking your body
And the morgue awaits reports for the autopsy

You didn't deserve this
You didn't deserve this