"numb to it all." lyrics

Numb to it all
To everyone I see
Fake conversations and nowhere to lead
And
I don't relate to anyone
And I won't even try
Damaged and desensitized
I was yours and you were mine
I'm so sick of the fact that nothing good ever lasts
And I can't move forward if I don't adapt
But how can the world rip you apart like that

Eyes glazed over
It's one and the same
No amount of intoxication
Ever loosens the weight

I can only disintegrate
Under everything I couldn't change
Reminded of all the things that I can't change

Numb to it all
To everyone I see
Fake conversations and nowhere to lead
And
I don't relate to anyone
And I won't even try
Damaged and desensitized
I was yours and you were mine
I'm so sick of the fact that nothing good ever lasts
And I can't move forward if I don't detach
But how the fuck do people move on so fast?

Everything feels so god damn temporary
I have no love to give
Won't sit here and force it
In desperate attempts I turn it and forfeit

I'll let in everything
To feel it all again
Forced to learn the lesson
That everything ends
Intoxication won't kill the pain
It all feels the same
I'll only just disintegrate

What's gonna drive me to care?
Cause I don't anymore
Bleeding on the bathroom floor
To feel something more, anything more than this
Regret's at the bottom of the bottle
I always find myself at the end
The only thing that makes me feel alive
Is slowly killing me at the same time