"Pull The Plug" lyrics

I'm so over this, I hate everything
Wanna pull the fucking plug
Baby promise me next time I O.D
Let me rot in the mud
And I can't feel a thing
It's been so fucking long since I've wanted to be alive
Only stay in here in the misery, for my family's sake every time

There's a fear I have that when I die this will all start again
Like a waking nightmare, that I cannot escape
I can never really disappear
Please, God, let me know
When the lights go out will these feelings all stop too?
And please don't bring me back to this place
Everyday is a test of if I'll make it through

I'm so over this, I hate everything
Wanna pull the fucking plug
Baby promise me next time I O.D
Let me rot in the mud
And I can't feel a thing
It's been so fucking long since I've wanted to be alive
Only stay in here in the misery, for my family's sake every time

There's a fear I have that when I die this will all start again