"Self Inflicted Violence" lyrics

Do you ever look in the mirror and don't recognise yourself?
I stare into my eyes and they don't stare back at me
Who are you? Who lives in this body that I tried to escape for so long?
They say you realise what you had when it's already gone

Screaming in silence, indulging in pain
Is this I, or am I going insane?

Forcing needles down my throat, internal bleeding
Is this reality or am I only dreaming?
Etched by the eternal tears of sadness
My face feels sticky as my flesh disintegrates
Who ought to save me from this madness?
A cry of anguish resonates as I dissipate

I'm forcing needles down my throat
But I feel numb and I want to hurt again

Remember the little knife you gave me to protect myself?
It's cutting up my stomach before I stick it in my leg
My wounds are oozing woe but I feel nothing instead
Time to move on, we have no time to wallow in regret
It's all in my head

Screaming in silence, indulging in pain
Is this I, or am I going insane?

I don't remember the last time I felt happy
Maybe I was born with the urge to dwell in pain
I take the pill that promised to lift the sorrow

But I feel numb and I want to hurt again
I want to hurt again
I'm forcing needles down my throat, feel numb
I'm forcing needles down my throat, feel numb