"Happier?" lyrics

I'm tied down
I'm all out of gas
I turned down the chance
Didn't want to fall out of bed
I'm holding back all the time
'Cause everything is overgrown and tired
I'm hanging by a thread on a vine
I'm asking for help from above
I'm trying to find that reason to love

'Cause I'm a debt
I'm rolling back
You make amends, you give what you get
I'm holding back all the signs
When I really should have called you that night
It eats me alive all the time
I remembered I had something to give
I'm trying to find that reason to live

It's all you know when our time is all gone

In all this time I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier
Through all the lights, the darkest nights
I wish you were happier, happier
And all you know, this world's so cold
So won't you pretend like we could never wonder why
In all this time I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier

Turning my back, turning my back again
Never look back, never look back again
I'm taking my time
I'm learning to let you in
But I needed you to guide me out from here
I know you see right through me
We all went blind
The hand goes backwards
I count the time

In all this time I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier
Through all the lights, the darkest nights
I wish you were happier, happier
And all you know, this world's so cold
So won't you pretend like we could never wonder why
In all this time I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier