"YARELIS INTERLUDE" lyrics

You sit so high, you never hear the damage
I've been bleeding quiet just to keep you comfortable
You call it distance, I call it abandonment
I stay when loving, you start making sense
You like to play angel when the lights come on
Hide the knives and tell God you were innocent
You say I changed like I wasn't drowning first
Like you didn't watch me sink and look away

I held you down while you were falling apart
You held me hostage to your version of love
You needed saving, I needed honesty
We both pretended that was the same thing
You don't see blood when it's not on your hands
You don't hear screams when they're inside my chest
I love you harder than you love yourself
That's not devotion, that's a death sentence
You keep your demons dressed in scripture
I keep my prayers folded with regret
You say I'm bitter, I say I survived
There's a difference you'll never learn

I would've burned a world to keep you warm
You wouldn't even reach back when I was on fire
If God was watching, He looked away too
Or maybe He knew this meant to break me
I don't hate you
I just finally see you
And that's worse than loving you ever was

Aye, look in your eyes, do you still love? (Sheesh)
First time that I saw you, I almost fell in love
You scared to tell that nigga what he want? (Sheesh)
You only fuck me when you fuckin' up, huh? (God)
Can we take it back to old time? We be back to us in no time
Don dada, Big Papa, whatever you wanna call me, baby, I'm here for you (Sheesh)