"Country Baptism Interlude" lyrics

I think the thing that I'm tryna tell you
Is that I'm being tormented
Damn near haunted by my past sins
I think, uh
That some of my past battles were showing up in my dreams as if it's real
'Cause this is in real time
I'm tormented because I've tried to live a life
By my granny's standards where she says
Pray for your enemies
But in the battle, in the war, ain't no praying for your enemies
All the prayers you got, you need to keep for yourself and your battle buddies
Especially when you're in a moment where it's either them or me
It's either the enemy or me
One of us is going home alive and well
The other one's going home in a box
And I think that's the torment in me
It's because we send a lot of people home in a box
So you can keep the wade in the water, moments
Just give me a country baptism and I'll be alright