"Happy" lyrics

I hate that I know you inside out
And I don't even know me at all
I know that I love when I kiss your mouth
And I know that you love it when I call

But when you left I felt embarrassed
'Cause you stayed that whole week at your parents
Played it cool, but God I felt it
I kept your candle lit until it melted

Tell me why I'm happy like this
When I don't even know what this is
I don't think that happy exists
'Cause it's never what you want and it's never what you wish

Girl, tell me what your happiness is
I'll push and pull until all it fits
But I'd hate to make you happy like this
'Cause I don't think that
I don't think that happy exists

Everybody's looking at me sideways now
Or maybe I'm just standing on the wall
Thought that you were looking at it upside down
But maybe I'm just way too scared to fall

'Cause when you left I felt embarrassed
You left your favorite T, but I wouldn't wear it
You think I'm cool, but God, I'm helpless
'Cause happy only happens when I'm selfish

Tell me why I'm happy like this
When I don't even know what this is
I don't think that happy exists
'Cause it's never what you want and it's never what you wish

Girl, tell me what your happiness is
I'll push and pull until all it fits
But I'd hate to make you happy like this
'Cause I don't think that
I don't think that happy exists

(Tell me hone you're happy)
I don't think that happy exists

Hate that I know you inside out and I don't even know me at all
Hate that you love me inside out and I don't even love me at all

Tell me why I'm happy like this
When I don't even know what this is
I don't think that happy exists
'Cause it's never what you want and it's never what you wish

Girl, tell me what your happiness is
I'll push and pull until all it fits
But I'd hate to make you happy like this
'Cause I don't think that
I don't think that happy exists

(Yeah)
I don't think that happy exists
Happy exists
(Tell me what)
(Tell me)
(Tell me what)