"how is it already october" lyrics

(I've...) It's like I'm runnin' a rat race
I'ma kill myself, so I'm comin' in last place
Why you lookin' at me with your eyes in a bad way?
It's already autumn, I waited, I've matched my days
On my shoulders, it's too much weight
And there's nothing left for me here anyways
It's already autumn, but I'm okay
With knowing I'll be dead by Valentine's...

(I've...) It's like I'm runnin' a rat race
I'ma kill myself, so I'm comin' in last place
Why you lookin' at me with your eyes in a bad way?
It's already autumn, I waited, I've matched my days
On my shoulders, it's too much weight
And there's nothing left for me here anyways
It's already autumn, but I'm okay
With knowing I'll be dead by Valentine's...