"Lotus" lyrics

I saw my body in a crimson field
Intoxicated by the horror and the glooming lights
Frozen is the emerald gaze
My death impending
I've never felt so much delight
Never felt so much delight
I saw my body in a crimson field

I want you to hurt me, cut me, hold me down and choke me
Spit blood in my face while you tell me that you love me
Bind me, beat me, whisper that you need me
Fill the void inside this empty vessel

Can you hear the silent whispers in your head?
I will show you the path to a perfect immortality
I'll disengage the toxins in your mind
I'll set you free from all your worries and anxieties
Don't look back now, don't be afraid now
Just close your eyes and I'll take your pain away

Please don't take my pain away
The only thing that's keeping me sane
It burns inside me day by day
Day by day, day by day
Please don't take my pain away
The only thing that's keeping me sane
It burns inside me day by day
Bury my body in the field of Lotus

I can feel the substances rushing through my veins
Eyes are restless, they spin out of control
My broken thoughts are the only reminiscence I hold
Of this empty feeling, hollow feeling, that I've sealed inside my broken soul

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me
I guess I'm addicted to watching you bleed
This is the only thing that makes sense to me
Now bleed for me

I want you to hurt me, cut me, hold me down and choke me
Spit blood in my face while you tell me that you love me
Bind me, beat me, whisper that you need me
Fill the void inside this empty vessel

Please don't take my pain away
The only thing that's keeping me sane
It burns inside me day by day
Day by day, day by day
Please don't take my pain away
The only thing that's keeping me sane
It burns inside me day by day
Bury my body in the field of Lotus
Bury my body in the field of Lotus

Don't take my pain away
It burns inside me every single day
Day by day, day by day, day by day
It never fucking goes away, goes away, goes away
I can't fucking believe this
Why do I feel this?
Is this the only way I want to feel?
I'm stuck in my fucking head
Bleeding and I'm sinking into everlasting pleasure and
Don't take my pain away
Bury my body in the field of Lotus