"Escape" lyrics

Broke down by the mess I've made
Destroyed like a heartbreak hand grenade
Is there a better way to leave my past behind?
And my scattered thoughts are endless plots to kill my mind
I'm broken by design

If I could just pretend
That everything is in my head
I could stay awake forever
Try to comprehend
That I'm not broken
No, I'm not left for dead
If I could stay awake forever
Maybe I'd escape this hell I'm in

I've gone through a million ways
Found out that my mind is just a slave
To everything that I've encountered
Loving how I'm fucking suffering
What a good for nothing I've become

If I could just pretend
That everything is in my head
I could stay awake forever
Try to comprehend
That I'm not broken
No, I'm not left for dead
If I could stay awake forever
Maybe I'd escape this hell I'm in

Help now, as I'm lost in emotion
As I drown in the ocean of fear
And I'm hellbent by your dying devotion
Swept away in the motion so clear

If I could just pretend
That everything is in my head
I could stay awake forever
Try to comprehend
That I'm not broken
No, I'm not left for dead
If I could stay awake forever
Maybe I'd escape this hell I'm in