"Stuck" lyrics

I've been feeling stuck, I've been feeling anxious
I've been hiding out inside my mind
A place where I can process, think I'm making progress
Maybe I can slow this monkey down
Thank you for the message, appreciate the sentiments
But with all this anguish I can't reply
Don't know what to say now, don't know how to play now
Need to slip away now, all the time, all the time

I love the way you smell, love the things you tell me
Love the way you flow inside my mind
When we're at each other's throats I still love your throat
And I'm still looking forward to your next smile
I guess you have my heart, don't know what to call it
I know I don't show it all the time
Exercise of patience, relishing the spaciousness
Of how we exist and how we thrive
When we thrive

In the ocean I am free
A place my fun found its peace
And if the ocean comes forth, swallows me
I'd be drowning and your faces are all I see

I've been feeling stuck, contemplating people
Contemplating choices in my life
Like in California, standing on the corner
Lonely on my birthday, writing lines
Pacing back and forward, feeling kinda tortured
Chemical distortion in my mind
Listening to my heartbeat, staring at my two feet
Distance that they have travelled, all the time
All the time