"Battling My Spirit" lyrics

I've been battling with my self, battling my spirit
I been talking out loud to god, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had niggas change up on you, so you won't know the feeling
My mama said I need love, but I just need some healing
I done lost so many loved ones I loved the most, that shit made me have love
I don't even want to be close to my fans, I don't want no hugs
Had to boss up to get my business straight, but I still hang around thugs
I just want the money, I don't want the love

My brother work three jobs and he living check by check
And that shit hurt my heart and I just hope that I'm not next
I done seen real niggas turn fake, I done seen fake niggas get praised
I done seen bad bitches get on, I done seen boss bitches get laid
I hope my son don't grow up like me, so just be a man
But he only 1 so I know he don't understand
Niggas I grew up with gon try to kill cause who I am
My grandma said she pray for me she just tell me to keep my head, high
Niggas try to slide once or twice, all them niggas seen want some red dies
My little nigga a stepper, he been playin Call of Duty too much all he want is some headshots
We drink wap pints to the head, I made a opp bitch give me head
Fuck that heart, just want my bread
I know niggas want me dead, so I keep winnin ahead
I didn't realize what you said

I've been battling with my self, battling my spirit
I been talking out loud to god, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had niggas change up on you, so you won't know the feeling
My mama said I need love, but I just need some healing
I done lost so many loved ones I loved the most, that shit made me have love
I don't even want to be close to my fans, I don't want no hugs
Had to boss up to get my business straight, but I still hang around thugs
I just want the money, I don't want the love