"Control" lyrics

I don't understand it
Tell me, does it show?
Feel overwhelmed by
A lack of control
Kick back and leave me in the cold
It's fine, I've never needed anything to hold onto
Now you say you want another lover at your door?
No, I don't wanna play the same game anymore
You wanna leave tonight
Leave before the light
Can offer us a bit of life

I never found out that peace of mind
Was an illusion bound and tied
Behind thick walls of blues and greys
The haze we'd dreamt up to disguise the pain
Hold on now, the feeling that it brings
Is just a temporary pain
And I'm never gonna bring it back 'round here again
I'm gonna leave tonight
Leave before the light
Can offer us a bit of life
Sever the chord that ties
These tiring eyes
To the dark in wait behind