"Halfway House" lyrics

I don't wanna see the stars anymore
I don't wanna keep in touch, I don't wanna feel used
So I don't think we should talk anymore
I know if I leave first you won't have the chance to hurt me
I got it rehearsed, learnt to assume the worst
It's the last time you'll see me unless you're dreamin'
It's the last thing I want but we can't even talk
I believe that you loved me but love's not enough
I'm not some ground just to walk on to distract you from him
I said to treat me better you said you're tryin' your best
So much for discourse you left me with holes in my chest
I'm not the first choice and I ain't cut out for this shit

I'm not the one here to blame
But you don't know what you're sayin'
Or what it's doin' to me
This halfway house doesn't feel like a home
You act so cold and I don't like the snow
I'm not the one who's insane
Go 'head and block me girl
You're no good for me anyway
This halfway house doesn't feel like a home
Your heart's so cold and I'd rather be alone

So why do I still miss you
When I got reassurance from the people that mean the most to me?
It's prolly the codependence
Or that this pain is endless
And I don't wanna deal with everything on my own
But what's there left to do
When the only thing I know is that I can't rely on you?
Just let me fade away
Yeah I know you weren't ready but we ain't on your terms anyway

I'm not the one here to blame
But you don't know what you're sayin'
Or what it's doin' to me
This halfway house doesn't feel like a home
You act so cold and I don't like the snow
I'm not the one who's insane
Go 'head and block me girl
You're no good for me anyway
This halfway house doesn't feel like a home
Your heart's so cold and I'd rather be alone