"Keepsake" lyrics

Have you ever seen this side of me?
Staring off and thinking if this is all there is
I always thought I'd die alone and confined
I'm holding on to what I have, a souvenir that was mine

Like a needle and thread
Can't stitch up or mend
Any minor mishap that's been
Taking over to my bitter end
And it's just my luck again and again
Still going down, and down I spin
Give it up

So if you picked up the phone
You maybe would've known
That this outcast stuck in the past
Broke every fucking vow we talked about

It's not the worst that it's been
I know that I'll never win
A goal that's just out of reach
Like my new year's resolutions
I'll watch the clock racing
To and forth I'll be pacing
This is the reason I'm this way
This is the reason I'm so afraid

It's starting up again and now it's brimming
I won't hold this in or let it get the best of me

Is something waiting for us at the end of the earth?
I get so existential when I think too much
I know I'm going to die alone and confined
I'm holding on to what I have, a souvenir that was mine

Like a needle and thread
Can't stitch up or mend
Any minor mishap that's been
Taking over to my bitter end
And it's just my luck, again and again
Still going down, and down I'll spin
Still going down, and down I spin
I'm giving up