"Hardest Thing Ever" lyrics

Honestly
Watchin' me let you go

They be like, "Ace, I love you," I tell 'em, "Don't call me" (Don't call me)
Tell 'em it's fuck it and sayin' it often (Fuck it)
I'm tryna survive, instead, I'm drownin' (Instead, I'm drownin')
You blowin' my high, please get from 'round me (Get from 'round me)
I don't want you honestly (I don't want you honestly)
Look what you have done, broken me (Yeah)
I'm smilin', but deep inside, I'm empty
Fightin' depression, I'm defeated
Fightin' to hold on, but it ain't easy (Fightin' to hold on)
I feel dumb, tryna believe you, but you leave me (Uh)
How you on my team when you believin' other people? (Believin' other people)
Why they ain't tell me that they love me right after they say they need me? (Uh)
Sleepin' in my grandma Barbara house, scared in the basement (Scared in the basement)
She the first one who made me believe I wasn't basic
I fell in love with our conversations
That's when I notice I'm filled with hatred
I'm far away with no transportation (No transportation)
All alone on this road with no destination (No destination)
High from my lifestyle when they fascinated
I think I was more happier when I wasn't able
Watched my eyes cry a river when nobody was there to wipe 'em (Nobody was there to wipe 'em)
Baby, I'm so broken, but ready to wife you (Ready, ready, I'm ready, oh)

Think my hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go
(The hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go)
I'm givin' you my all, feel like it wasn't enough (Wasn't enough)
Tryna prove that I love you, I started changin' myself
Fillin' my body up with drugs, it got me abusin' myself
When you opened up my journal, think you read I was hell
And the hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go
(Swear the hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go)
And the hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go
(And the hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go)

And I apologize for my excuses (I apologize)
I overcame every obstacle (I beat it)
I done went and beat everything they thought was impossible (Seemed impossible)
'Cause of my gun, I'm on point, I'm stayin' dangerous (I'm stayin' dangerous)
I want him dead, I'm sendin' killers from every angle (From every angle)
These streets scarred me bad and it hurt (And it hurt)
My dog crossed me, hope it was worth it (Why you do that?)
Bae, when we was arguin', said some things that was hurtful
Can you take it back?
(Yeah, can you take it back?)

And the hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go
(And the hardest part ever was watchin' you let me go), yeah
And the hardest part ever was watchin' you let me go
(And the hardest part ever was watchin' me let you go)
And the hardest part ever was watchin' you let me go