"Happy Instead" lyrics

Well, I've been pacing this room for forty hours
Crawling up the wall and trying not to call
And I saw you walking in a supermarket aisle
I didn't say a word 'cause you had the biggest smile
And I've been thinking of you in the morning times
You woke me up so soft, I forgot the world ain't kind
I'd pull you in and you'd kiss me through a grin
And you'd say you missed me when you were busy sleeping

But what if I said, happy instead
Is the way that I reckon it should be
And if you'd call, you'd say that you're okay
And I'd be wishing I was dead
'Cause you're happy instead, happy instead

And I've been dreaming of the life we woulda had
Happy at times but mostly just mad
Maybe it all worked out, maybe it'd been fine
But every day your smile ain't showing seems a waste of time

So what if I said, happy instead
Is the way that I reckon it should be
And if you'd call, you'd say that you're okay
And I'd be wishing I was dead
'Cause you're happy instead, happy instead

And it's been ten years, I haven't called you once
But you called last night and my child up and jumped
He asked who you were and you did the same
Handed me the phone and I couldn't recall your name

What if I said, happy instead
Is the way that I reckon I should be
And if you'd call, you'd hear that I was okay
And you'd be wishing you was dead
'Cause I'm happy instead, happy instead
Oh, I'm happy instead
Happy instead

What if I said, happy instead
Is the way that I reckon I should be
And if you call, you'd hear that I'm okay
And you'd be wishing you was dead
'Cause I'm happy instead