"On My Own" lyrics

I've been on my own for too long
Feeling down
I've been on my own for too long
Feeling down

I've been turning all my pain and all my problems into progress
But never realized I lost myself up in the process
Too focused on the content
And not enough on context
You can't really feed the passion if you're caught up on the profit
You can't see the bigger picture if you're never looking up
And you can never smell the roses if you're focused on the mud
I'm too sick of feeling stuck
Kinda plain, giving up
Always trying to run away whenever going's getting tough
I can feel it in my blood
Never satisfied with anything I feel it ain't enough
So I keep on chasing highs just so I can feel the rush
I just wanna feel alive when I'm sick of feeling numb
But I know that in my heart
I'm scared of what I could become
Been searching for the sun inside my cloudy days
Keep saying that I will
But I still never change
I got everything I wanted just to feel the same
And I did everything I could to redirect the blame
Make mistakes but I'm looking for atonement
Desire's always better in the moment
But I keep on hoping
That I can find an omen
And all of this is nothing but a drop up in the ocean
Karma keep me floating
They think I'm a poet
But honestly I think I need to work on being stoic
Cause I don't wanna be another victim of emotion
Know they'll paint me as a villain even if I die heroic
It's funny how it goes
I been rolling with the bunches through the highs and through the lows
And looking for the truth inside the lies that get exposed
No matter what it takes I never bend I never fold
I just take it day by day and focus on what I control